PorterHouse: WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!

That's right, I am officially 100% pregnant. The lines on the pregnancy test just kept getting darker and darker along with some very strong side effects like acid reflux (from the excess progesterone in my body), dreams, and morning sickness. I told the fertility specialist that I thought I might be pregnant and I was worried she would yell at me for testing so early, but absolutely not. She sent me for bloodwork on Monday, when I was 12 DPO and the result came back at 59. She said that anything over 5 means your pregnant and they like to see the number over 50 which it is.

I'm slightly worried because on the same day with Noah's pregnancy, I was at 114, but it could have mattered depending on what time of day I went or whether I was actually off a day or so, since the number doubles every 48 hours or so. The bigger test will be when I go again on Saturday and get the result back on Monday. They need to see those numbers increasing every 48 hours or less for it to be a good pregnancy so far.

After that point, I will have to wait another 2-4 weeks before I can go for my first doctor's appointment where they'll do an ultrasound to confirm the pregnancy and hopefully see a heart beating. After that, I'll feel pretty confident going forward. Until then, I'm SUPER scared. I don't remember being this scared or nervous with Noah.

I remember being super pregnant with Noah and feeling him kick and move all the time and so it's hard to remember this part of pregnancy, which makes me feel NOT pregnant and makes my fears worse. On top of that, the acid reflux and a lot of the morning sickness went away. David said it's just my body adjusting to everything and it's a good sign that I'll have an easy pregnancy again, but I'm not convinced.

That's the other thing. I feel like I had a pretty good pregnancy and birth with Noah and he's such a good baby/toddler and then it was almost TOO easy to get pregnant this time around (ok - well we had to do fertility treatment, but considering). I think we got too lucky and something bad is bound to happen. Sigh - I just need to push all these bad thoughts out of my head and start enjoying the pregnancy and relaxing. There's no reason to worry until I'm given a reason to worry!

So I'm due April 4, 2012, according to my calculations, but that could, of course, change at my first appointment. I'm excited to have more of a spring baby than right in the middle of winter. I'm a little bummed that it couldn't have been a few days later to not mess with the end of busy season, but it is what it is.

Ok finally some pictures of my tests. I went maybe a tad overboard in how many tests I've taken. Don't judge.

This is my progression picture. If you look closely, you can see the line going negative and then slightly positive.