More thinking...

So I've thought a lot about this and I've decided that yesterday was probably for the best. First of all, because of this delay, I will most likely have to sit next cycle out due to our vacation planned for mid-June. This is sort of a good thing because I can drink while on vacation and not worry about being pregnant. Don't get me wrong...I would much rather be pregnant and not drink. But if I'm not going to be pregnant, I would at least like to drink worry-free. Also, don't worry that I will be drinking and partying crazy with a 1 year old toddler with me. I just plan on having a few drinks by the pool/beach.

Because of the delay and sitting out next cycle, it's looking like the following cycle wouldn't start up until late June, possibly even early July, depending on what we do. I have calculated that if I want my baby to be due post April 15, it has to be conceived later than July 30. I am really hoping for after that date, so that I don't have to miss busy season again (I did with Noah). You probably think I'm crazy, but I enjoy busy season. I don't like not seeing my family and working long hours, but I like being busy, the days go by quickly, and I just get a lot of satisfaction out of it. Not to mention that I haven't been at my new job for that long, so I don't really want to explain to them that I'm pregnant already and have to miss busy season. The other reason is because I hated being home on maternity leave when it was so cold out. I felt like I couldn't take him out because it was cold/flu season and it was too cold outside. I would much rather have maternity leave in the later spring or summer. Now of course, these are all my "wants". God obviously has the master plan. Maybe He thinks I shouldn't be stressing myself at work and will make me due during busy season. Maybe He thinks I should have a baby closer to winter and I won't get pregnant for several months. Maybe He thinks I'm done having kids. I don't know.

One tiny regret, though. I miss breastfeeding. I feel like because of all this and with the vacation planned, that I may have gotten a little too eager to want another baby. Now with all this waiting, I could have continued breastfeeding Noah until he was ready to be completely done. Or maybe he was completely done anyway??? My plan is to breastfeed the next one longer, especially since I'm ok waiting a few years for a third. Yes, I want a third. Really, I want several more, but that's up to the husband, who I think would be happiest with just the 3. Again, it's really all up to God.

On a side note - this weekend is my brother's college graduation. He has been in college a little longer than your average person, but that makes it nonetheless wonderful. He has really grown into an adult these last few years. He's engaged to be married in October and has just become extremely mature. My mom would have been really proud and of course, my whole family is very happy and proud.

Oh ok, I'll post some pictures, since it's been a while. This is a great picture of Noah (well, his head). It was sent from our daycare, he fell asleep while playing:




And another one of him enjoying his new slide:




I will get better at taking pictures.