Went in for my pre-scan today and not really that exciting. Everything looks good, no cysts or anything that would prevent us from moving forward. So I start 100 mg of clomid tomorrow for 7 days. Then we go back for another ultrasound on 5/12. Hopefully that will show lots of big follies and then we'll trigger. I'm very excited and so far, so good. I really know what to expect this time around and it all seems so easy with no problems, which is why I'm worried.
Also, a small Noah update (we can't forget about Noah). We were able to put him to sleep just fine last night. We did his bath, then a book, then kisses and into bed. He didn't make one peep. Here's to hoping he's back to normal.
I also decided I don't take/share enough pictures. Most of the time, I try to get them with my phone, which isn't that great of quality plus it's super slow. By the time I have the app open and ready, whatever Noah did is long done. I need to start carrying my point and shoot with me more. We have an ultrazoom camera too that I should use more. I think I take a lot of Noah's growing up for granted and forget to take pictures. I will try and be better.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Day 1
Back to TTC #2 - Day 1 is here again. Officially this is my 3rd cycle postpartum. To summarize, Cycle #1 was what I thought was my first PP cycle brought on without meds. I did soy instead of clomid this cycle and while I think it helped my eggs get bigger, I never ovulated. Cycle #2 was brought on by progesterone and then I did 50 mg of Clomid. Again, no ovulation. That is the story of my life.
So now we are with the specialist at PARINTS. She had me do progesterone again to bring on a new cycle, which it has done. Now I'm going in tomorrow for a prescan ultrasound just to make sure there are no cysts or anything that would prevent me from ovulating. Once she can confirm that everything looks good, we will start 100 mg of clomid on day 3 through 9. I should go back around day 14 for another ultrasound to see how things are doing and then trigger then or in a few days. Then the waiting begins.
I hate to almost admit this, but as much as I really want to be pregnant (trust me, I do), I almost don't want it to happen just yet. If I got pregnant this cycle, my due date would be scary close to Noah's birthday and I just don't want them to have the same birthday or even that close to each other. Not to mention, I don't really want to miss all of busy season again. At this point, we'll just have to see what happens. Even those things aren't stopping me from continuing this cycle, I still want to be pregnant. What's that saying, beggers can't be choosy.
One other thing - from my calculating on the calendar, it looks like we might just be ok for the next cycle. I originally thought that we would have to sit the next one out because of our trip to Cancun. But it looks like we may be able to get the next cycle in before we leave. The only downside being that if I'm waiting to either take a pregnancy test or get my period, then I really shouldn't be drinking in case I am pregnant. While I don't mind not drinking because I'm pregnant, I don't want to not drink just because I MIGHT be pregnant. We'll just have to see as it gets closer.
So now we are with the specialist at PARINTS. She had me do progesterone again to bring on a new cycle, which it has done. Now I'm going in tomorrow for a prescan ultrasound just to make sure there are no cysts or anything that would prevent me from ovulating. Once she can confirm that everything looks good, we will start 100 mg of clomid on day 3 through 9. I should go back around day 14 for another ultrasound to see how things are doing and then trigger then or in a few days. Then the waiting begins.
I hate to almost admit this, but as much as I really want to be pregnant (trust me, I do), I almost don't want it to happen just yet. If I got pregnant this cycle, my due date would be scary close to Noah's birthday and I just don't want them to have the same birthday or even that close to each other. Not to mention, I don't really want to miss all of busy season again. At this point, we'll just have to see what happens. Even those things aren't stopping me from continuing this cycle, I still want to be pregnant. What's that saying, beggers can't be choosy.
One other thing - from my calculating on the calendar, it looks like we might just be ok for the next cycle. I originally thought that we would have to sit the next one out because of our trip to Cancun. But it looks like we may be able to get the next cycle in before we leave. The only downside being that if I'm waiting to either take a pregnancy test or get my period, then I really shouldn't be drinking in case I am pregnant. While I don't mind not drinking because I'm pregnant, I don't want to not drink just because I MIGHT be pregnant. We'll just have to see as it gets closer.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Baby's Best Interest?
I saw an article the other day on a website I frequent. Basically, it was about a new mom who CHOSE to not breastfeed. Her reasons were because she wanted to return to a "normal" life as soon as possible. Her article went on saying that she shouldn't feel peer pressure to breastfed or feel guilty for making this choice.
I thought about this and thought that every woman has a choice to breastfeed or not. I know several women who are good close friends who have tried to breastfeed and just couldn't for one reason or another. A lot of times I think those situations could have been fixed so that she could continue to breastfeed, but they just switched to formula. While I don't agree with this, it is every woman's right to make that choice. The biggest problem I have with this article is that her reason for not breastfeeding is to return to a normal life.
First, I don't know what she considers a normal life, but now that she has a child, that is her life. It will NOT be the same as before. Guaranteed. I wouldn't trade my life now for the life I had before Noah, not for anything. I love my life now. But it's definitely different.
Second, and more importantly, why would she not be thinking of her child and what is best for him/her?
I've decided this second issue is the base for a lot of why I don't understand why other parents do what they do or don't do. Everything single thing since the second I got pregnant (probably even before then), I did with the intention of doing the best thing I could for my child. Of course, some things I had to weigh out the pros and cons of doing something, but in the end, my thought is "how will this affect my child". He is #1 in my world and everything I do revolves around him.
I'm not saying you should just let yourself go and never think of yourself. I think every mom needs some alone time and some time to refresh. I also think that every mom and dad needs their own time together to reconnect and keep the marriage alive.
Also, just because me and another mom are both thinking of our children equally as much when making decisions doesn't mean we will come to the same result. For example, I chose daycare for Noah while another mom who is trying to make the best decision for their child may choose an in home daycare or may choose to stay at home. All of these are good decisions as long as you are thinking of the child's best interests.
Back to the article, I don't think she considered breast milk or what that can do for her child at all when making her decision, which is why I think she is making a bad decision. So I will end this post with this: If you are making a decision about parenting your child and your child is not the center of your decision making process, then you are probably making the wrong decision.
I thought about this and thought that every woman has a choice to breastfeed or not. I know several women who are good close friends who have tried to breastfeed and just couldn't for one reason or another. A lot of times I think those situations could have been fixed so that she could continue to breastfeed, but they just switched to formula. While I don't agree with this, it is every woman's right to make that choice. The biggest problem I have with this article is that her reason for not breastfeeding is to return to a normal life.
First, I don't know what she considers a normal life, but now that she has a child, that is her life. It will NOT be the same as before. Guaranteed. I wouldn't trade my life now for the life I had before Noah, not for anything. I love my life now. But it's definitely different.
Second, and more importantly, why would she not be thinking of her child and what is best for him/her?
I've decided this second issue is the base for a lot of why I don't understand why other parents do what they do or don't do. Everything single thing since the second I got pregnant (probably even before then), I did with the intention of doing the best thing I could for my child. Of course, some things I had to weigh out the pros and cons of doing something, but in the end, my thought is "how will this affect my child". He is #1 in my world and everything I do revolves around him.
I'm not saying you should just let yourself go and never think of yourself. I think every mom needs some alone time and some time to refresh. I also think that every mom and dad needs their own time together to reconnect and keep the marriage alive.
Also, just because me and another mom are both thinking of our children equally as much when making decisions doesn't mean we will come to the same result. For example, I chose daycare for Noah while another mom who is trying to make the best decision for their child may choose an in home daycare or may choose to stay at home. All of these are good decisions as long as you are thinking of the child's best interests.
Back to the article, I don't think she considered breast milk or what that can do for her child at all when making her decision, which is why I think she is making a bad decision. So I will end this post with this: If you are making a decision about parenting your child and your child is not the center of your decision making process, then you are probably making the wrong decision.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Trip to Dallas
So we are back in St. Louis. Evidently we missed a lot with the tornadoes that struck Friday. Thankfully, no one was killed and our house was still in tact with no damages.
Noah did pretty good. The drive down was rough especially at the end when he was really tired and refused to sleep in the car seat anymore. He didn't want to be entertained or anything, all he did was cry and scream. We made it and of course, then he still had no desire to go to sleep. We ended up having to lay in the bed next to him and even then, he woke up several times during the night crying.
The other nights were a little better. We still had to rock him to sleep but at least he stayed asleep for the most part. He did toss and turn a lot which I think was either due to temperature (it was hotter at the house we were staying in than what he was used to) or he does that every night and we just don't know it since we don't sleep right next to him.
For the drive home, we left earlier and did all our driving during his normal awake hours except for a few naps. He slept quite a bit and was entertainable for the rest of the time. We hooked up David's iPad to the car and played Noah's signing videos for him. He really seemed to like that.
Sadly, the whole trip has screwed up his sleep schedule. Last night, when we got home, we were able to just set him down in his crib and he put himself to sleep (same as before the trip). However, today for his naps, he wouldn't go down unless we rocked him and normally he takes 1 longer nap but he woke up screaming after only an hour, so we had to put him down for a second later afternoon nap. Then when we put him down for the night, he just screamed. David tried but he wasn't going to sleep at all. So then I stepped in. He kept tossing and turning in my arms, which is what Noah usually does to put himself to sleep. So I went ahead and layed him down and of course, right away, he sat up. So I layed him back down and tried "shushing" him while standing next to him. It was enough to get him to lay his head down but I could still see his eyes open. So we did that for maybe 10 minutes and then I started backing slowly out of his room and made it. He wasn't fully asleep though, but he was able to go to sleep on his own without crying.
I don't like to let him cry it out, but I also don't want him to get too used to us just rocking him to sleep every night. Hopefully he goes back to normal Noah soon. This really worries me for when we take our trip in June. Maybe because we are taking a much shorter flight rather than a long drive, it won't mess with him as much.
Noah did pretty good. The drive down was rough especially at the end when he was really tired and refused to sleep in the car seat anymore. He didn't want to be entertained or anything, all he did was cry and scream. We made it and of course, then he still had no desire to go to sleep. We ended up having to lay in the bed next to him and even then, he woke up several times during the night crying.
The other nights were a little better. We still had to rock him to sleep but at least he stayed asleep for the most part. He did toss and turn a lot which I think was either due to temperature (it was hotter at the house we were staying in than what he was used to) or he does that every night and we just don't know it since we don't sleep right next to him.
For the drive home, we left earlier and did all our driving during his normal awake hours except for a few naps. He slept quite a bit and was entertainable for the rest of the time. We hooked up David's iPad to the car and played Noah's signing videos for him. He really seemed to like that.
Sadly, the whole trip has screwed up his sleep schedule. Last night, when we got home, we were able to just set him down in his crib and he put himself to sleep (same as before the trip). However, today for his naps, he wouldn't go down unless we rocked him and normally he takes 1 longer nap but he woke up screaming after only an hour, so we had to put him down for a second later afternoon nap. Then when we put him down for the night, he just screamed. David tried but he wasn't going to sleep at all. So then I stepped in. He kept tossing and turning in my arms, which is what Noah usually does to put himself to sleep. So I went ahead and layed him down and of course, right away, he sat up. So I layed him back down and tried "shushing" him while standing next to him. It was enough to get him to lay his head down but I could still see his eyes open. So we did that for maybe 10 minutes and then I started backing slowly out of his room and made it. He wasn't fully asleep though, but he was able to go to sleep on his own without crying.
I don't like to let him cry it out, but I also don't want him to get too used to us just rocking him to sleep every night. Hopefully he goes back to normal Noah soon. This really worries me for when we take our trip in June. Maybe because we are taking a much shorter flight rather than a long drive, it won't mess with him as much.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Fertility Update
So I've decided to keep everyone up to date on our fertility journey (aka struggles) despite still having not changed the name of my blog. It should happen soon.
I am officially on Cycle #3 postpartum. First cycle was what I thought was a period, but I think now that it wasn't. I tried soy (a natural alternative to Clomid) and got the same results that I do with clomid (nothing). So I called the doc and he got me on prometrium to bring on the period, then 50 mg clomid for Cycle #2. That went well except my temps were showing I didn't ovulate (again) and some horrible miscommunication resulted in no bloodwork this cycle. So I contacted Becky at Parints and she recommended we wait another week just to be sure and then go for bloodwork. I did that and sure enough, no pregnancy and no ovulation. My body seems to be back to its old tricks, again. So I'm on prometrium again. I guess I shouldn't have said I'm officially on cycle #3 yet, since that won't happen until I get my period, oh well!
Cycle #3 will be 100mg of Clomid with a trigger, from what I understand. I'm so glad to be working with Parints again. I love my doctor but he really just can't give infertility patients the attention they need and deserve when going through all this. And Parints are just so awesome.
I can honestly say I'm so excited about all this and can't wait to get the real fun going. The first time around I was scared and nervous at this point. I didn't know when or if ever I would have a child. I didn't know what all the steps were and I was confused by the lingo. Now I know exactly how it all works and what to expect. I also have some hope knowing it worked the 2nd try. Not that I'm expecting it to happen that soon again, but it certainly gives me hope.
Part of me is afraid though because this all seems to be going so smoothly. Parints just took me right in, no wait. And we aren't going to mess around, just go right back to what worked. I tried to conceive Noah for a year. 6 months off meds, 6 months on meds, but only 2 cycles on what needed to happen. So all that waiting and messing around and really I just needed to do 2 cycles!
In other news, we are getting ready to go to Dallas, which I'm also very excited about. I will take lots of pictures and post them when we return.
Busy season is wrapping up and I will be able to post on my blog a lot more. Maybe attract some new visitors and get some comments rolling? Anyone? Anyone?
Ok well until next time...
I am officially on Cycle #3 postpartum. First cycle was what I thought was a period, but I think now that it wasn't. I tried soy (a natural alternative to Clomid) and got the same results that I do with clomid (nothing). So I called the doc and he got me on prometrium to bring on the period, then 50 mg clomid for Cycle #2. That went well except my temps were showing I didn't ovulate (again) and some horrible miscommunication resulted in no bloodwork this cycle. So I contacted Becky at Parints and she recommended we wait another week just to be sure and then go for bloodwork. I did that and sure enough, no pregnancy and no ovulation. My body seems to be back to its old tricks, again. So I'm on prometrium again. I guess I shouldn't have said I'm officially on cycle #3 yet, since that won't happen until I get my period, oh well!
Cycle #3 will be 100mg of Clomid with a trigger, from what I understand. I'm so glad to be working with Parints again. I love my doctor but he really just can't give infertility patients the attention they need and deserve when going through all this. And Parints are just so awesome.
I can honestly say I'm so excited about all this and can't wait to get the real fun going. The first time around I was scared and nervous at this point. I didn't know when or if ever I would have a child. I didn't know what all the steps were and I was confused by the lingo. Now I know exactly how it all works and what to expect. I also have some hope knowing it worked the 2nd try. Not that I'm expecting it to happen that soon again, but it certainly gives me hope.
Part of me is afraid though because this all seems to be going so smoothly. Parints just took me right in, no wait. And we aren't going to mess around, just go right back to what worked. I tried to conceive Noah for a year. 6 months off meds, 6 months on meds, but only 2 cycles on what needed to happen. So all that waiting and messing around and really I just needed to do 2 cycles!
In other news, we are getting ready to go to Dallas, which I'm also very excited about. I will take lots of pictures and post them when we return.
Busy season is wrapping up and I will be able to post on my blog a lot more. Maybe attract some new visitors and get some comments rolling? Anyone? Anyone?
Ok well until next time...
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Mini update
Ok, lots of changes and new things going on here. I will try to be quick and list them all, but expect a much bigger and detailed update coming soon (hopefully before April 18, but it may not be until after crazy season ends).
- Noah is doing great. He is full on walking, rather running, all over. Now that he has mastered this motor skill, he is slowly switching to mastering more social skills. He points at everything and wants to know what it is. His best friend is Buddy and they go everywhere together. He also a few signs, such as all done.
- We bought a new car. Specifically a new 2010 Prius. We love it so far and it will be great on fuel (aka our checkbook) but still fits Noah and all his things great.
- We are going to Dallas in 2 weeks. Noah's daycare is closed on April 22 and 25 for Easter, so we thought we'd take advantage and go visit Danielle in Texas since she had her new baby. I'm so excited to see all of them, especially little Levi.
- We booked a summer vacation at Isla Mujeres (near Cancun). We'll be going in June and Noah will be going with us. We're hoping to get his passport this weekend, assuming the government doesn't shut down.
- I debated whether to post this or not, but I think I will. I'm officially back on fertility meds. I just finished our first cycle with clomid only and of course, nothing happened. But since I went to the fertility specialist the first time to conceive, I get to go right back without a referral or anything. I am currently waiting to see if I ovulated late, which I doubt I did. Then next Wed (4/13), I will start prometrium to start a new cycle. Then I will be doing 100mg of Clomid with a trigger. Wish us luck!!
I think that about sums up our lives right now. I will be changing the name of my blog soon to better represent what I'm talking about. Any suggestions? Hopefully I will be full on blogging again soon.
- Noah is doing great. He is full on walking, rather running, all over. Now that he has mastered this motor skill, he is slowly switching to mastering more social skills. He points at everything and wants to know what it is. His best friend is Buddy and they go everywhere together. He also a few signs, such as all done.
- We bought a new car. Specifically a new 2010 Prius. We love it so far and it will be great on fuel (aka our checkbook) but still fits Noah and all his things great.
- We are going to Dallas in 2 weeks. Noah's daycare is closed on April 22 and 25 for Easter, so we thought we'd take advantage and go visit Danielle in Texas since she had her new baby. I'm so excited to see all of them, especially little Levi.
- We booked a summer vacation at Isla Mujeres (near Cancun). We'll be going in June and Noah will be going with us. We're hoping to get his passport this weekend, assuming the government doesn't shut down.
- I debated whether to post this or not, but I think I will. I'm officially back on fertility meds. I just finished our first cycle with clomid only and of course, nothing happened. But since I went to the fertility specialist the first time to conceive, I get to go right back without a referral or anything. I am currently waiting to see if I ovulated late, which I doubt I did. Then next Wed (4/13), I will start prometrium to start a new cycle. Then I will be doing 100mg of Clomid with a trigger. Wish us luck!!
I think that about sums up our lives right now. I will be changing the name of my blog soon to better represent what I'm talking about. Any suggestions? Hopefully I will be full on blogging again soon.
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